I cried my eyes out, bled out my soul.
I remember being all nasty, you being all cold.

I was all teary, I was all torn.
You took along my smile, with the fake mask I’d worn.

With every breath that I took,
I wondered what went wrong.
Where was it that what I overlooked.

I was taken aback, to see you leave.
Yes, I was shocked. Yes, I couldn’t believe.

I thought you were my escape,
But you turned out to be fake.
You took all you could, all you could take.
Guess, we were together just for the namesake.

Everything was in a mess,
Yes, I confess.
You turned out to be the demon, when I thought you were the best.

Everything was fine, yes I lied.
Recalled what all I could, yes I cried.

We were going really well, my friends used to say.
Liars, they turned out. With you, they betray.

I thought we were doing okay,
Now what it seems, you only wanted to play.

You played a nice game,
With my heart that was tame.
Yes, you are to be blamed,
For you brought me shame.

We were together at a time,
But now I guess that was a crime.
I thought again we’d begin,
But now I guess that was a sin.

You threw flame in my heart,
Guess what, it was torn apart.
All you did was simply depart,
But felt like you threw in my soul a dart.

Whatever I had thought of you, all assumptions went wrong.
You wronged me, when I thought we were going strong.

I thought we were perfect, our relationship was divine.
But guess what dear, you were never mine.

© Khushi Suneja


Kim Jonghyun💔\\k.s

So as some of you may know, a very talented young Korean man, Kim Jonghyun, the lead singer of the boyband SHINee, committed suicide on Monday (18 December 2017) and left us all with some memories of his to cherish and mourn. It is believed that he consumed very unhealthy amount of carbon monoxide, a very poisonous gas and died. Earlier, he had been sending disturbing messages to his sister, dropping hints of his mission, and in doubts his family and friends tried protecting him but it was of no use. He was taken to the hospital after the accident but was declared dead soon after. Two weeks before his death, he even sent a 47- line text to his friend Jang Hee- Yeon, a band member of Dear cloud, in which he clearly said that he was broken from the inside.

So pretty, clearly, the boy died due to mental issues, stress and depression. But the worse part, he was just 27, he had his whole life ahead of him. He was definitely getting too much of hate to bear which made him take such a big step.

Honestly speaking, since I am not that much into K-Pop(just familiar with a few artists), I didn’t know about him. Yet, I cried for him. I felt really really bad for what he did to himself. But seems like he had no choice.

I really don’t get it that why is there so much hatred in this world. Like how cruel can one be? How can people be that incredibily devilish? How can people hate on someone so bad as to push them to their death? What about the person’s feelings? No bother.

It has purely been due to the hatred that he had been receiving all this time that added up and lead to something this disastrous. Mental illness, what they say. Congrats to you haters, you won. And it has not been just for the first time that anyone has taken such a step. Just because he was famous, this issue had been brought into the limelight.

I hope people realize the mess they’ve caused because after Jonghyun, more than 100s of Shawols(SHINee’s fans) have committed suicide. This clearly needs to stop. It takes approximately 5 seconds to send hate to someone. But that person receiving it might feel bad for over 5 mins, 5 hours, 5 months or maybe 5 years…. you never know.

So, if you’re reading this, and you’ve ever sent hate to someone or want to, just stop. Picture yourself in their shoes. And then, you wouldn’t even dare to. I still feel that if people had been a lil sweeter, he would have still been alive. The world didn’t deserve him. I hope he’s in a better place now.

R.I.P Jonghyun 🌹\\ You will be missed.

I believe in you\\k.s

If the world was against you, and you stood at a little corner of the world, I would come with my sword all ready, to fight for you.

If you found yourself on the verge of dying, on the verge of drowning in the sea, don’t worry. I’d sail across all oceans, fight the biggest of waves, to save you.

If you stood at the mountain top, on the verge of tumbling down to your death, I’d climb the highest of the hills, I’d soar above the clouds, to protect you.

If you find yourself standing on a broken bridge, about to fall , I’ll be there to catch you.

If you had to die in a war tomorrow, I’d stand next to you like an armour, to defend you.

If you had no one to have a talk with, no one to lend you a shoulder to cry on, I’d come for you, I’ll be there for you.

No matter where you are, whenever in trouble, I’ll search for you and I’ll find you.

Because I believe in you.

© Khushi Suneja

My eyes\\k.s

My eyes hurt from the tears that I’d shed this morning. The tears I shed last night as well. I was all happy, until I heard you say, goodbye. My heart ached, and I started to cry.

How much my soul sinked, you’ve got no idea, when you left me in the middle of nowhere. I cried, cried and cried. But you seemed to take no notice of that.

I wonder what happened to my happily ever after.What happened to the perfect life that I’d imagined ahead of me?What happened to my life, what happened to me? What happened to you?

There was a time when we were inseparable. So perfect. So together. Now the tears that my eyes shed say, how lonely I really am. How lonely, I am gonna be, now that you’re gone.

My soul, tries.

My heart, dies.

My eye, cries.

© Khushi Suneja

I Forgive You\\k.s

I forgive you for the mess you’ve caused.
I forgive you for keeping me in a haux.

I forgive you for leaving me in the dark.
I forgive you from miles apart.

I forgive you for pushing me away.
I forgive you for not making me stay.

I forgive you for making my soul mourn.
I forgive you for making my heart torn.

I forgive you for the betrayal.
I forgive you for not staying loyal.

I forgive you for leaving your scars.
I forgive you for imprinting your marks.

I forgive you for the delayed replies.
I forgive you for those little white lies.

I forgive you for those useless fights.
I forgive you for the sleepless nights.

I forgive you, I swear.
I forgive you, my tears say.

I forgive you, although you’ve never apologized.
I forgive you, my heart lies.

© Khushi Suneja

My heart\\k.s

In this little world where everything’s expensive, my heart was available for free; unused, full of feelings, full of emotions.

And yes, you took it all by yourself. I expected you to give me yours but you left me bare, all bare.

But for all I could have ever known was that I was gonna get it back one day. All used, all shattered, all torn.

My heart was torn, so you give it back. Hers wasn’t, so you took it instead and kept it all by yourself. But in the midst of all this, it wasn’t just my heart I realized that I was regretful of giving you. It was more of my trust. My trust, not in you though. But in me. It had been my faith in myself that had compelled me to give you my heart. Now it lies here, all shattered and ruined.

©Khushi Suneja