Friends \\k.s

I saw you guys dancing around, I saw him fling you in his arms,
I couldn’t help but wonder if I could take his place,
‘Cause wishing couldn’t harm.

You’d be staring at him in wonder, staring at him in awe,
While I’ll be standing in a corner, with my love pure and raw.

I would watch you guys everyday, see you walking around hand-in-hand,
While I’d be standing in the rain, drenched near a bus stand.

You’d be sitting next to him in the car,
While I’ll be somewhere quite afar.

I’ll just keep wishing that you’d be mine,
Just praying that our relationship would refine.

I knew that I could treat you better, I knew he didn’t deserve you
But you were so blinded by his love that you just had no clue.

He just had you as a doll, just a toy to play,
I knew for sure that he’ll leave you one day.

He left you soon enough, just as I had foreseen,
Just like you I wonder, how could he be so mean?

He broke your heart into a million pieces while I was ready with a glue in my hand,
I just wanted to fix you, just making you okay was my plan.

I don’t know if it’s right to even think like that, but I secretely hoped that now you should be with me instead.
I kept on thinking about that, the thought was now roaming inside my head.

I approached you with flowers and a hope in my heart,
But who knew our mindsets were so apart.

It took all the courage in me to finally confess,
Only Lord knows, how hard I was trying to impress.

You looked at me with hurt in your eye,
For all I knew, you’d let out a cry.

But there was still a hope alive inside,
Now it was just for you to decide.

You rejected the flowers and gifted me with your words,
Something I wish I had simply misheard.

And then all my hopes, everything came to an end,
As soon as you said, “Lets just be friends.”

© Khushi Suneja

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Kim Jonghyun💔\\k.s

So as some of you may know, a very talented young Korean man, Kim Jonghyun, the lead singer of the boyband SHINee, committed suicide on Monday (18 December 2017) and left us all with some memories of his to cherish and mourn. It is believed that he consumed very unhealthy amount of carbon monoxide, a very poisonous gas and died. Earlier, he had been sending disturbing messages to his sister, dropping hints of his mission, and in doubts his family and friends tried protecting him but it was of no use. He was taken to the hospital after the accident but was declared dead soon after. Two weeks before his death, he even sent a 47- line text to his friend Jang Hee- Yeon, a band member of Dear cloud, in which he clearly said that he was broken from the inside.

So pretty, clearly, the boy died due to mental issues, stress and depression. But the worse part, he was just 27, he had his whole life ahead of him. He was definitely getting too much of hate to bear which made him take such a big step.

Honestly speaking, since I am not that much into K-Pop(just familiar with a few artists), I didn’t know about him. Yet, I cried for him. I felt really really bad for what he did to himself. But seems like he had no choice.

I really don’t get it that why is there so much hatred in this world. Like how cruel can one be? How can people be that incredibily devilish? How can people hate on someone so bad as to push them to their death? What about the person’s feelings? No bother.

It has purely been due to the hatred that he had been receiving all this time that added up and lead to something this disastrous. Mental illness, what they say. Congrats to you haters, you won. And it has not been just for the first time that anyone has taken such a step. Just because he was famous, this issue had been brought into the limelight.

I hope people realize the mess they’ve caused because after Jonghyun, more than 100s of Shawols(SHINee’s fans) have committed suicide. This clearly needs to stop. It takes approximately 5 seconds to send hate to someone. But that person receiving it might feel bad for over 5 mins, 5 hours, 5 months or maybe 5 years…. you never know.

So, if you’re reading this, and you’ve ever sent hate to someone or want to, just stop. Picture yourself in their shoes. And then, you wouldn’t even dare to. I still feel that if people had been a lil sweeter, he would have still been alive. The world didn’t deserve him. I hope he’s in a better place now.

R.I.P Jonghyun 🌹\\ You will be missed.